Christmas.
I feel like I don't have anything profound or touching or spiritual to say for this day. I've been home from school for a week but it only feels like a day or two because I have been working so much. I worked for nine hours yesterday and am looking forward to another six today...people just love to go to movies on Christmas, I guess.
This has been a huge learning and growing year for me. I keep wondering when this is going to be easy, when I'm going to get a hang on life. Seems like it was much more simple when I was an emotional and disturbed teenager. Now nothing is as it seems, and I have to rethink every strategy I have because they all fail somehow.
While I don't particularly enjoy growing up, I can recognize ways that it's a good thing. I have learned to appreciate a lot of things in my life, particularly the Gospel.
I can tell you right now, I would be in the most wretched and squalid place if it weren't for the Gospel. I'm not much better than that, but at least I know how to use the Atonement in my life. That is the most important thing. Without it I am, we all are, nothing.
Friday, December 25, 2009
Sunday, December 20, 2009
Some Things that have been Disturbing Me.
1. Someone stole the "Arbeit Macht Frei" sign off the gates of Auschwitz. Why? Why would you steal a gigantic iron sign? Especially one that is a huge symbol of the power of unadulterared loathing and the possibility of overcoming that? Who is really that sick? Who?!
2. I was over at some friends' house at a game night gathering. One couple was late because they had been downtown and there was a Trax accident, so they had to wait for their train, and eventually decided to walk back to their car. What had happened was that a man had tried to ride the trax by hanging on to the outside, and when the train turned a corner, he fell under it and his legs got cut off. He made it to the hospital, where he died. But the report that the wife of this couple gave was "Sorry we're late, someong got run over by Trax and we had to walk SIX BLOCKS to our car!!" And about every 15 minutes after that, for the next 5-6 hours, she reminded us "At least you didn't have to walk SIX BLOCKS to your car tonight!" "I can't believe we had to walk SIX BLOCKS to our car!" "I'm tired, and I don't want to play the games because I had to walk SIX BLOCKS to the car tonight!" "I'm so sick of going downtown, especially if I have to walk SIX BLOCKS to my car afterwards!"
Six blocks. Takes about ten minutes. A man died. At Christmas. He is dead. His life is OVER. But you had to walk six blocks, so we'll let you be the most miserable person on the planet.
Society is really taking a down turn, my friends.
2. I was over at some friends' house at a game night gathering. One couple was late because they had been downtown and there was a Trax accident, so they had to wait for their train, and eventually decided to walk back to their car. What had happened was that a man had tried to ride the trax by hanging on to the outside, and when the train turned a corner, he fell under it and his legs got cut off. He made it to the hospital, where he died. But the report that the wife of this couple gave was "Sorry we're late, someong got run over by Trax and we had to walk SIX BLOCKS to our car!!" And about every 15 minutes after that, for the next 5-6 hours, she reminded us "At least you didn't have to walk SIX BLOCKS to your car tonight!" "I can't believe we had to walk SIX BLOCKS to our car!" "I'm tired, and I don't want to play the games because I had to walk SIX BLOCKS to the car tonight!" "I'm so sick of going downtown, especially if I have to walk SIX BLOCKS to my car afterwards!"
Six blocks. Takes about ten minutes. A man died. At Christmas. He is dead. His life is OVER. But you had to walk six blocks, so we'll let you be the most miserable person on the planet.
Society is really taking a down turn, my friends.
Sunday, December 13, 2009
Semester Wrap-up
This has been a crazy semester. Being an English major is really starting to catch up to me...so much reading and writing. Probably why I haven't blogged too much...writing anything I don't have to isn't fun anymore because of all the writing I have to do... :( But I still love it, let's be honest. Not much better than producing a quality paper.
So I've had a unique situation this semester in that I'm living again with Tara Cottle, who I lived with my freshman and sophomore year, also. This is her first semester back from her mission, and we are also living with her MTC companion, Rachael Davidson. Our other three roommates are all first-semester freshmen. So we have three 23-yr-olds, and three freshmen. It is crazy. We've had fun with it, especially teaching the freshmen what's really up in college. :)
Also, Tara, Rachael and I have all had boyfriends this semester. It's funny because we were all 23-yr-old anti-men she-women basically. But it's way fun, our boyfriends all get along really well and so we do stuff together a lot. Last week we all went to The Nutcracker in Idaho Falls together. It was way fun...I was the only one who had seen the Nutcracker before, so it that was kind of amusing for me. Good times.
I finally got smart and started planning ahead and making a schedule for myself, so in this last week of school, all I have to do is read C.S. Lewis's "Grief Observed" and two chapters of my psych book. And that's it for finals. It's pretty awesome. I'm really exicted to go home and have Christmas though! YAY Christmas!
So I've had a unique situation this semester in that I'm living again with Tara Cottle, who I lived with my freshman and sophomore year, also. This is her first semester back from her mission, and we are also living with her MTC companion, Rachael Davidson. Our other three roommates are all first-semester freshmen. So we have three 23-yr-olds, and three freshmen. It is crazy. We've had fun with it, especially teaching the freshmen what's really up in college. :)
Also, Tara, Rachael and I have all had boyfriends this semester. It's funny because we were all 23-yr-old anti-men she-women basically. But it's way fun, our boyfriends all get along really well and so we do stuff together a lot. Last week we all went to The Nutcracker in Idaho Falls together. It was way fun...I was the only one who had seen the Nutcracker before, so it that was kind of amusing for me. Good times.
I finally got smart and started planning ahead and making a schedule for myself, so in this last week of school, all I have to do is read C.S. Lewis's "Grief Observed" and two chapters of my psych book. And that's it for finals. It's pretty awesome. I'm really exicted to go home and have Christmas though! YAY Christmas!
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
