Honestly, how do I get in situations like this?
I didn't ever want to write a whiny blog, so I will try not to here.
So one of my strongest morals is to never steal a girl's boyfriend.
I've broken kids up before, that's true, but I have not stolen a boyfriend. I never dated someone after I encouraged him to break up with his former girlfriend. I also have never made a move on a guy that I knew a friend was pursuing.
Part of this is because it's happened to me five times in various ways. FIVE.
I think I can say those situations have caused more pain in my life than any other situation, including break-ups, because the pain takes years to get over. And the pain has gotten exponentially worse every time it's happened.
So I could never do it to another girl.
Could I?
Now that I have the opportunity I've wanted for six years, am I going to take it?
Saturday, January 24, 2009
Friday, January 16, 2009
A Little Late...but whatever.
I know this is late, but I don't really care. I liked it, and I haven't done one yet :)
2008 Recap
1. What did you do in 2008 that you'd never done before?Lots of things...mostly go to places I'd never been
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
This year is the first time I've made resolutions. So I did make some.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth? not close enough that I knew about it!
4. Did anyone close to you die? Well, some people I know did die.
5. What countries did you visit? Switzerland, Austria, Poland, England, Ireland, Nothern Ireland, Sweden, Belgium, Italy, Liechtenstein
6. What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008? Honestly, the only thing I lacked in 2008 was a man...although I'm not yet sure if I want one in 2009 either.
7. What date from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? November 10, my birthday, because it was both powerfully awful and sweetly wonderful.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? Getting home from Germany
9. What was your biggest failure? Going broke :)
10. Did you suffer illness or injury? Nothing serious
11. What was the best thing you bought? Honestly, probably the clothes I bought in Sweden. So much joy.
12. Where did most of your money go? Deutsche Bahn and German Wings! Also souvenirs.
13. What did you get really, really, really excited about? Literature.
14. What song will always remind you of 2008? At Least I'm Known for Something by New Found Glory or Sweet Rosie by Royal Bliss
Compared to this time last year, are you:
15. Thinner or fatter? Thinner!
16. Richer or poorer? desperately poorer.
17. What do you wish you'd done more of? Exploring Rheinland
18. What do you wish you'd done less of? chatting with Lloyd on Facebook :)
19. How did you spend Christmas? With my family in Murray
20. Did you fall in love in 2008? I probably was already in love but I realized it.
21. What was your favorite TV program? The Office :)
22. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? Hate? Not quite. Am I not friends with people I was friends with at this time last year? Yes.
23. What was the best book you read? As I Lay Dying by William Faulkner
24. What was your greatest musical discovery? Royal Bliss (discovered before, loved now)
25. What did you want and get? Good grades
26. What did you want and not get? A job that pays well
27. What was your favorite film of this year? Probably "Get Smart" or "The Happening"
28. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? 22, and I just chilled with my roommates and fhe family, and Diana took me out to eat twice.
29. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? Not having to worry about money.
30. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008? Incorporate more black and more scarves in my wardrobe.
31. What kept you sane? Chatting with Lloyd on Facebook. :)
32. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? none...
33. What political issue stirred you the most? the fact that I thought about politics at all...
34. Who did you miss? Everyone I know!
35. Who was the best new person you met? I'm probably going to have to say Katarina Moellerstroem.
36. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008: You can't avoid being human, so you might as well love it!
MOVIES
So I'm starting to think it was a mistake to take Fiction into Film (where we just read books that were turned into movies) and Screenwriting at the same time, because now I feel like I can watch movies and I'm actually studying...
So I'm writing a full length feature film this semester. So far the synopsis is: A young man (Mark) is a local rockstar in London, and he wants to be more and change the world, except he just can't get himself motivated enough to do so. But his best friend, the girl who lives upstairs, is heavily involved in the anarchist movement against the corrupt British government, and is trying to motivate him to join with her. Finally he realizes his love for her (if I could find a less cheesy way to word that, I would) and uses that to motivate him to become a successful leader of the rebellion.
It's also a musical.
And all the songs are by Muse.
I'm not sure how I'm going to get the rights for this to actually be produced. :)
So I'm writing a full length feature film this semester. So far the synopsis is: A young man (Mark) is a local rockstar in London, and he wants to be more and change the world, except he just can't get himself motivated enough to do so. But his best friend, the girl who lives upstairs, is heavily involved in the anarchist movement against the corrupt British government, and is trying to motivate him to join with her. Finally he realizes his love for her (if I could find a less cheesy way to word that, I would) and uses that to motivate him to become a successful leader of the rebellion.
It's also a musical.
And all the songs are by Muse.
I'm not sure how I'm going to get the rights for this to actually be produced. :)
Monday, January 12, 2009
Winter Semester 2009
And thus begins my 6th semester at BYU-Idaho. We didn't really get snow until the last two days of finals in the fall semester, so when I came back up and there was a four-foot wall of snow around my driveway with a small opening for cars to pass through, I was quite excited to say the least. I will never look at snow the same after suffering a snow-less winter in Bonn, and experiencing the haven of the snowy Alps four times last winter. I LOVE SNOW!!
So I've been to four days of classes now, and can I just say, I definitely chose the right path. I love all my classes, they are utterly thrilling. It's ridiculous how swept away I get while discussing either Freud or the conventions of the American short story (primarily what I've done with the past week). I imagine this is what normal girls feel when they read Twilight and other ludicrous romantic (small r) novels. I often find myself breathless after class. Other people joke about literature being their boyfriend. Well, the joke ends here. I am irrevocably in love with literature.
I also find psychology very stimulating. I think I'll panic when I graduate.
Anyway, already I've had some reflection provoking experiences this semester. In the past week, three of my dearest friends have announced that they are getting married. Two are missionaries who served in the Frankfurt mission, either in my ward or my stake. They are both marrying girls they met on the mission (so I'm hoping that trend continues...hehehe). Another is my best friend from Europe, who isn't officially engaged yet but expects to get married by the end of the year, so now I have to start saving to go to Sweden for her wedding. I'm so excited for all three of them! Also, one of my roommates from last semester got married on Saturday, and it was so beautiful! I love weddings. They are pretty much my most favorite way to spend my day.
I also have experienced an unprecedented shift in my social structure. Already I am closer to my roommates than I think I've ever been. I have the same roommates as last semester, minus three, but we didn't get any new ones. I find it remarkable how it is that you can spend so much time, energy, and money in one person, or a group of people, but sometimes they still fail you eventually and you have to move on, but there are always people around the corner with arms wide open ready to love and accept you for who you are. These are my roommates. We are a very quirky bunch and honestly I think we have very little in common as a group, besides a simple desire to create the feelings of a sisterhood...
Speaking of sisterhood, on our first night back together, my roommates and I watched "House Bunny" which is a riotously hilarious movie.
Two hilarious moments:
There is a scene when the main character gets held overnight in jail and she shares her cell with a bunch of prostitutes. Of course, this is the moment when the entire bishopric including the attractive executive secretary decide to visit our apartment. We stopped it, but our dvd player still displays the name of the movie on the screen. Our first counselor raised his eyebrows and reprimanded us jestingly. From the amound he knew about the content of the movie though, it sounded like he'd seen it, too...
Secondly, there was a scene where they were having an Aztec-themed party. Of course, the frist thing I noticed was they had decorated with Easter Island heads. I had to point out that Easter Island heads do not belong at an Aztec party. About 3 minutes later in the movie, one of the dorky girls who is trying to become cool said "You know, these are Easter Island heads. They don't really belong at an Aztec party," to which the cool girl teaching the others to become cool said "you're too smart. Guys don't like girls who are too smart." Wow. That explains a lot... ;)
Thirdly, when the dorky girl finally hooks up with the guy she's had a crush on forever, she says "I want to be your girlfriend more than an electron wants to attach to a proton!" Love it.
And speaking of movies, I get to write one this semester for my screenwriting class. STOKED!! I have a brilliant idea, but I'm kind of thinking it's too big for my first movie...so if anyone has anything they'd like to see become a movie let me know. I'm thinking of adapting a bunch of Poe stories, or maybe turning some of my previous novel ideas into a movie. We'll see.
So that sums up my thoughts and adventures for my first week back in Rexburg. More depth later.
So I've been to four days of classes now, and can I just say, I definitely chose the right path. I love all my classes, they are utterly thrilling. It's ridiculous how swept away I get while discussing either Freud or the conventions of the American short story (primarily what I've done with the past week). I imagine this is what normal girls feel when they read Twilight and other ludicrous romantic (small r) novels. I often find myself breathless after class. Other people joke about literature being their boyfriend. Well, the joke ends here. I am irrevocably in love with literature.
I also find psychology very stimulating. I think I'll panic when I graduate.
Anyway, already I've had some reflection provoking experiences this semester. In the past week, three of my dearest friends have announced that they are getting married. Two are missionaries who served in the Frankfurt mission, either in my ward or my stake. They are both marrying girls they met on the mission (so I'm hoping that trend continues...hehehe). Another is my best friend from Europe, who isn't officially engaged yet but expects to get married by the end of the year, so now I have to start saving to go to Sweden for her wedding. I'm so excited for all three of them! Also, one of my roommates from last semester got married on Saturday, and it was so beautiful! I love weddings. They are pretty much my most favorite way to spend my day.
I also have experienced an unprecedented shift in my social structure. Already I am closer to my roommates than I think I've ever been. I have the same roommates as last semester, minus three, but we didn't get any new ones. I find it remarkable how it is that you can spend so much time, energy, and money in one person, or a group of people, but sometimes they still fail you eventually and you have to move on, but there are always people around the corner with arms wide open ready to love and accept you for who you are. These are my roommates. We are a very quirky bunch and honestly I think we have very little in common as a group, besides a simple desire to create the feelings of a sisterhood...
Speaking of sisterhood, on our first night back together, my roommates and I watched "House Bunny" which is a riotously hilarious movie.
Two hilarious moments:
There is a scene when the main character gets held overnight in jail and she shares her cell with a bunch of prostitutes. Of course, this is the moment when the entire bishopric including the attractive executive secretary decide to visit our apartment. We stopped it, but our dvd player still displays the name of the movie on the screen. Our first counselor raised his eyebrows and reprimanded us jestingly. From the amound he knew about the content of the movie though, it sounded like he'd seen it, too...
Secondly, there was a scene where they were having an Aztec-themed party. Of course, the frist thing I noticed was they had decorated with Easter Island heads. I had to point out that Easter Island heads do not belong at an Aztec party. About 3 minutes later in the movie, one of the dorky girls who is trying to become cool said "You know, these are Easter Island heads. They don't really belong at an Aztec party," to which the cool girl teaching the others to become cool said "you're too smart. Guys don't like girls who are too smart." Wow. That explains a lot... ;)
Thirdly, when the dorky girl finally hooks up with the guy she's had a crush on forever, she says "I want to be your girlfriend more than an electron wants to attach to a proton!" Love it.
And speaking of movies, I get to write one this semester for my screenwriting class. STOKED!! I have a brilliant idea, but I'm kind of thinking it's too big for my first movie...so if anyone has anything they'd like to see become a movie let me know. I'm thinking of adapting a bunch of Poe stories, or maybe turning some of my previous novel ideas into a movie. We'll see.
So that sums up my thoughts and adventures for my first week back in Rexburg. More depth later.
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